I am finally free!!
I am free! Finally!. From what you ask?I am free from myself.
As you can see from the photo above which I took just on Tuesday of this week I have a full face of makeup on. It's actually a little heavier than it's showing in the photo but that's how I wear my makeup all the time.
I have had a love affair with all things makeup for many years. I also have never gone out anywhere without makeup on since the age of fourteen. That's a lot of years!
Well, over this past year, my forty-eighth year on this earth something has shifted in me. I have suddenly lost my deep love for makeup. Don't get me wrong, I still love makeup but I am not in love with makeup anymore. Does that make sense to you? The other thing that has happened over the last year is I seem to not be so obsessed with the way I look all the time. Meaning, my makeup.
Many times now I have gone to Walmart which I know, isn't saying much because at Walmart you see a lot of things you've never seen before and can only experience at a Walmart (laughs) but I have more than once now gone to Walmart with no makeup. I have gone through the drive through at Walgreens with no makeup. And tonight I did something I never thought I would. I went and got my nails done without a stitch of makeup on!
I know this may sound shallow to some and I really do not mean it to be read that way but this is a huge thing for me. I am beginning to believe that aging, well I've always believed that aging is a good thing because after all when you have one parent who passed away at age thirty-six and another who passed at age fifty-six you learn to embrace aging with all it's creaks, and stiffness, wrinkles and grey hairs, but I am also thinking that aging, for a woman anyway is also absolutely freeing!
I have reached a point in my life where I am not out to impress anyone. I don't honestly care what anyone thinks of how I look when they look at me, if they look at me and you know, for the first time in all my years I am really okay with that. I have reached a point in my life where the only opinion of myself I truly care about is that of God. No one else's really matters much to me anymore.
So ladies, as you age, of course be grateful for everyday but also embrace the real you, the raw you, wrinkles, gray hair, uneven skin tone and shine like a diamond.