Well hello there friends and family.. I hope you're all well and healthy.
I haven't written in my Corona Diaries series in a while and thought I'd check in and share some thoughts and opinions. If you're the 'sensitive' type you may want to skip this post. Those of you who have followed me on my social media platforms know I don't pull any punches and I speak what's on my mind. I am not from the "politically correct' era and I never will be. So having said that, let's move on..
My first question is, how are you all doing?
As for me and mine, we are .....doing... In the beginning of all this I was like most were and sadly some still are. Scared, wiping down everything, staying home as much as possible and in general freaking out.. Then...things changed for me...
What changed? My spirit, my emotions, my thoughts.. I stopped freaking out.. I turned to the Lord and now I can share with you. Here is how I am looking at this virus itself. Most of you know that my doctors are almost positive I had this virus in January which lasted until approximately mid March. I can also tell you that yes, it exists and kills people. I can tell you that I was so sick I thought I would be one of those people. I can tell you I had my husband get my life insurance out just in case. That, is how sick I was. If you would like to me to tell you about my experience with this let me know in the comments and I will make a post about it..
Here's what I also know. No one can tell us if we can be infected again and no one can tell us when we will die or what we will die of. And that there is my whole point of this post.
Many months ago I gave all my anxieties and fears over to the Lord. I handed my life over to him completely. Every single area of my life I gave to Him. In return he helped me to understand that even before this virus my life has always been in his hands from the moment I was created. He knows when and what I will die from. As humans we all think we have control over everything when in reality we don't have control over much of anything.
So how I live each day is, I don't worry. I pray each morning to keep my loved ones and myself safe.. I take some, precautions and I live my day knowing that no matter what happens in this life, the Lord will be there to see me through whether that means in this life or He decides to lead me to the next. Now does that mean I want to die? Of course it doesn't... What it does mean is I trust Him completely and depend on Him for everything. He is in control. Anxiety and fear do not come from God. Once we learn to let things go that we have absolutely no control over and trust Him with everything we are free and so I am free. Does that mean I do not have some concern for my loved ones and myself? Of course it doesn't but knowing He is there and handles everything brings great peace and freedom.
I watch people run around in a panic since this began, scolding others for what "they think" is correct, worrying about every, single, little thing and I realize they live like this because they have no faith. You can't possibly have faith and still live like this and so I pity them and pray for them...