October 29, 2021

I'm A Little Afraid

 


Hello everyone. I know it's been quite some time since I've come to my blog to say hello, give an update or anything else but as you can see by the title of this post I've got some things going on that are a bit frightening at the moment. 

Last week I went to an orthopedic doctor because I have been having trouble with what I believe is my rotator cuff. It's been very painful and my range of motion has been terrible.

While there the doctor agreed it sounded like an injury to the cuff of some kind so he wanted to get some X-rays which they did right in the office. Afterwards they put me back in the exam room to wait for him. I was in no way expecting what would happen next. It wasn't even on my radar. 

He put up my X-rays and said he can't get a good picture of the rotator cuff but he wanted me to look at the bone in my upper arm. He showed me a sort of shady spot in the bone. He said, "I am more concerned about this then your rotator cuff"... next he went on to tell me that it could be normal for me, it could be a cyst or......it could be metastatic bone cancer. Meaning, I have cancer somewhere in my body and it's spread to my bones. He is setting me up for an MRI as soon as possible. 

As most of you know I have been having more trouble with my stomach and gallbladder than usual and yes, I have dropped much too much weight. Then again I also had a CT Scan with contrast a few months ago of my entire abdomen and nothing showed there.

As you can imagine, at the moment I am trying very hard not to get ahead of myself but having lost my mother at age fifty six to pancreatic cancer and I am now fifty one, it's not an easy task. Those I have told keep telling me to think positive. Well, the truth is, I am human and 99.9% of humans can't think positive when the C word is mentioned.

I am trying though and I am trying as best I can to trust in the Lord. And will whatever He wills no matter what that means but this is all, also easier said than done. I won't know much more until I hear from scheduling with my MRI appointment and then go back to the doctor for the results...

Please, if you'll be so kind... keep me in your prayers. 



27 comments:

  1. I can totally understand what you are feeling. It’s easy to say stay positive when you are in the outside looking in.
    I say lean on God. Sorrow s yourself with his words and promises! He gave us all of our emotions, and He understands us better than Anyone. I will be praying for you. Hang on and Let God. I love you ❤️

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  2. Hello Robin. There's nothing else like hearing the C word. I had thyroid cancer and when I was told I had it, it put a whole different spin on life with an array of emotions. To this who say be positive...most of those peeps do not want to really hear about what you are going through. It's kind of a built in protection thing for them because they don't want to get cancer. Praying is important, but so is finding someone like Jesus with skin on their bones in the flesh. Human sympathy is needed. I'm so very sorry you are going through this. There may be times that you cry out to God and He will listen and comfort. I will be praying for you. Robyn, I will continue to lift you up in prayer. d

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  3. I can't imagine how this news has your mind in turmoil. The only comforter is Christ. No words can bring you peace other than the peace of God. I am praying for this peace to be in you and around you so you may think clearly and be able to hear what God is saying to you right now. Remember you have friends praying for you.

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  4. praying for you Robyn. Be strong. Sending you hugs and many prayers. xoxo, Susie

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    1. Im trying. Thank you so much Susie XO

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  5. How awful! There is no positive to C. I can only imagine the feelings you now have. I am sending positive thoughts and crying a bit for you.

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  6. Robyn, I absolutely will keep you in my prayers along with my son and others who are ill. Thank you for letting us know you need that support and prayers. I'm here of you need me. Glad you found Ramblingon. That's my human blog...what I am accidentally signing with is my cat's blog. I didn't log out yet. XX

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  7. Thank you for stopping by my blog. Please know you will be in my prayers during what I'm sure is a frightening time of waiting. I will be praying for a good outcome and for you to feel God's peace and presence now. Take care.

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  8. I will definitely keep you in my prayers, Robyn. I had stage 2 breast cancer, myself, and underwent surgery, chemo, and radiation treatments. I hope the MRI will be scheduled soon and the results will be an all clear. In the meantime, know that there are others who are praying for your good health.

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  9. We’ll I would be scared too and yes, it is normal when the “c” word is mentioned. I’ll keep you in my prayers. Just get in ASAP for that MRI - and go from there. Try not to get ahead of yourself. Take it one procedure at a time. Please keep us updated.

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    1. Thank you so much Debby and yes I will XO

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  10. Oh, you must be worried and scared waiting to hear. I hope the MRI is done soon and you get good news.

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  11. I'd be scared and worried too. I hope you get good news after all the tests are done. You have a Happy Halloween, hugs, Edna B.

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  12. I will always be with you Robyn. Sending hugs and prayers. If you need to chat, you know where I am. Big hugs, oxoxoxo

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  13. Robyn waiting for an appt cause so much worry...I am praying for you..Remember God is in control..I will be praying for you...Hope Lou is doing better..

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  14. Praying for you and I hope everything turns out good. xoxo

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  15. My beautiful friend. I love you so much and I am praying. Ugh... I say this a lot, but I mean it, I wish I lived closer to you. Please, keep me updated. ((Hugs))
    Deb

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