Hello everyone. I know it's been quite some time since I've come to my blog to say hello, give an update or anything else but as you can see by the title of this post I've got some things going on that are a bit frightening at the moment.
Last week I went to an orthopedic doctor because I have been having trouble with what I believe is my rotator cuff. It's been very painful and my range of motion has been terrible.
While there the doctor agreed it sounded like an injury to the cuff of some kind so he wanted to get some X-rays which they did right in the office. Afterwards they put me back in the exam room to wait for him. I was in no way expecting what would happen next. It wasn't even on my radar.
He put up my X-rays and said he can't get a good picture of the rotator cuff but he wanted me to look at the bone in my upper arm. He showed me a sort of shady spot in the bone. He said, "I am more concerned about this then your rotator cuff"... next he went on to tell me that it could be normal for me, it could be a cyst or......it could be metastatic bone cancer. Meaning, I have cancer somewhere in my body and it's spread to my bones. He is setting me up for an MRI as soon as possible.
As most of you know I have been having more trouble with my stomach and gallbladder than usual and yes, I have dropped much too much weight. Then again I also had a CT Scan with contrast a few months ago of my entire abdomen and nothing showed there.
As you can imagine, at the moment I am trying very hard not to get ahead of myself but having lost my mother at age fifty six to pancreatic cancer and I am now fifty one, it's not an easy task. Those I have told keep telling me to think positive. Well, the truth is, I am human and 99.9% of humans can't think positive when the C word is mentioned.
I am trying though and I am trying as best I can to trust in the Lord. And will whatever He wills no matter what that means but this is all, also easier said than done. I won't know much more until I hear from scheduling with my MRI appointment and then go back to the doctor for the results...
Please, if you'll be so kind... keep me in your prayers.