Hello friends and family. Happy 2022... Why do we say "happy" 2022? What does that even mean? Is it because we 'hope" it will be a happy year? Is it because if the holiday falls on a weekday we get a day off of work or school? I'm just wondering.
I hope everyone had a very blessed Hanukah for my Jewish friends and Christmas for my Christian friends. I have been away a while and I have so many thoughts I want to get out on my blog and things to share with you.
Christmas was a quiet one this year. They usually are but it was even more quiet this year. We usually spend it with Linda and Bill, for those who don't know they are our friends, family, neighbors who live 4 houses down and we've been like family for sixteen? years now. We always spend holidays, birthdays, no reason days together but this year that wasn't possible. Linda has been battling lung cancer for I think four? years now and while her doctor is saying her scans are clear, it's very clear something is very wrong still. Linda is not well at all physically. I think her doctors suck to be honest and are completely treating her like she's just part of cattle with a number. Because any doctor worth anything can just look at her and know and see something is very wrong. So any way, unfortunately she wasn't up to company and coming here is out of the question so it was just me and my husband Lou. Of course most of you know I have a swallowing disorder for the last 18 years of unknown origin as of now and unable to swallow 99% of solid foods so I just made a small lasagna for Lou with homemade meatballs, sauce, salad and some garlic bread. I am very lucky that he's not a picky eater. He will pretty much eat anything I put in front of him.
My small but extended family are still up in NJ and in CT so I haven't spent a Christmas with them in 18 years due to finances. I don't fly and a round trip train ticket is like $500.00 for one person and we just don't have it. I miss them.. We have our problems like most families have problems but I do miss them most on holidays and birthdays.
It actually was a blessing that Christmas was quieter than usual because I was dealing with really, really nasty migraines for a week. I finally asked my doctor for a pain killer because I couldn't handle the pain anymore. That, is a whole other story I will tell you. I am not a pill person. Ironically you would think someone who has been chronically ill for thirty years would have no problems with pills but, I do. I don't like them, I am afraid of them and they more times than most make me sicker than what I was originally taking them for.
As for New Years. Honestly, I am not a party person, never was. I remember going out TWICE in my entire life on New Years eve. Every other year of my life was spent with my family and or my husband at home watching Dick Clark's Rockin Eve which in the past few years, really since he passed I have not watched and in the last three years I don't even stay awake to see the ball drop in Times Square anymore. Maybe it's age? I just don't find it all that exciting anymore. That's not to say I don't look forward to things, I surely do but to me New Years Day is just another day on the calendar. I stopped making "resolutions" many, many years ago. Do I have things I would like to accomplish or change? Sure, but for most, when they make "resolutions" you're just setting yourself up for a quick failure so over the last few years as I learned everything is in Gods hands and in His time I tell Him what I'd like to do and let Him decide if it comes to fruition or not...
Well, I think I've spewed some thoughts at you long enough for now. I do hope you all had a wonderful New Year holiday with friends and family and for those who spent it alone please don't fret because while you may feel physically alone, you're not. God is always with you even when you don't know it and also, there are many many people in this world who don't have others around them and you know what? It's okay. You have yourself and you always, have God.